"Life is amazing and insane at the same time. Thing come and things go. People share their stories, and Move along. Seasons change, So do we. Why do we get upset over such small things. When All things in life are a great experience to learn from. Life is a liquid force and I would never change mine!" Zachy Adams, The Wonderer

Just a catch up.... and strange events!

Have things turned around, I needed that rest in Fort Collins. I needed to meditate a lot, realign myself and get balanced. Things have turned around completely. I am no longer broke, I have a better set plan and I know that no matter what, things will always work out. After getting myself in a better position (mentally anyways) I came back to Denver to give it another shot. I lost my camera in the process, but we will get to that.  Made enough money to get me through quite a while, have atleast the next week laid out for me. I love my life. I love the fact I know I am never alone. I worried and lost it all. I stopped worrying, and here we are, I have everything I need  then some. What an Amazing life. I now am in Boulder, Co. haven’t figured out the mixture of reviews. I’m not exactly impressed yet, or disappointed. Haha… according to reviews there is no in between! Yet, that’s all I am seeing lol… who knows maybe I got here to soon. We will see. Which Denver was cool, but not overly until I wandered Beyond the parts people told me were cool… Off the beaten Path my friends. Off the beaten Path. Without stress, and without worrying about what could be. Enjoying each moment as It comes. Meeting cool new people each moment, and Moving forward.

Awesome experience I would like to share though. One of the last days in Fort Collins  I walked into a local shop. In this local shop I saw a statue I about hit the floor when I came across. About 6 months ago in meditation I see a figure of two people conjoining in a certain way. They are blue. I enjoy these figures enough that I actually sketch them the best I can from memory. I walk into this shop, and there this statue sets of this figure I saw in meditation. I luckily have my sketch book with me to show that I’ve saw this with out ever seeing in person. Since them I have came across it multiple times all over the place. Not just in Fort collins… Explain that one….

  love and Light 

The wonderer

Zachy

In Spicy Pickle Out of Flow Haha

I was wondering, has any of you reading this ever experienced one of those moments where it seems like it is all an epic mess, and you’re stressed beyond reason? Welcome to being out of the flow! I recently, and I am sure I will experience it again in my life time being OUT OF FLOW!

I had made it to Denver, Co. Had lunch with my friend who dropped me off, and relaxed in a Panera. Chatting and trying to rebuild contacts in the area. I got a place to stay since camping is not an option in the area. The place to stay was a test for myself. Gordon was an awesome person we talked for hours. Extremely sweet guy, caring. But his ways are different then mine. He didn’t understand my ways, and to him that made them wrong. Or at least felt that way. We talked  a long time, He asked me tons of questions and never quite got anything I was saying. He reminded my of my ex roommate.  In the way that there was only one way to do things, and that wasn’t mine. I will admit I became week and started doubting myself. ( This is where it all starts lol)

 With this night, this test I became out of balance and began to question all my experiences that I know are real and that had led me to the moment of being right there. I pulled myself out of flow and like we learned in the last blogg… FLOW IS AMAZINGNESS! I allowed my light to dim for a short time, and all seemingly fell apart. My friend found me at the bus station about in tears, It had been a day. Went smoothly and was nice. Nap in a park a little coffee, and 3 dollars for gravy and Biscuits.  But the more the day went the more I worried. The more I worried the less things worked out. By the time my friend got me, Money was gone. The place to stay fell through. Worked I had lined up fell through, and the last bus to get me to where my friend lives pulled away as I Stood there. At this Point my plans A, Plan B, Plan C had fell through. I am usually quick on my feet to come up with plan D. This day the only plan D I had was to Cry. What a day!

So After I got to my friends house I talked to my roommate and my mom. Both Helped me get calm. I was finally able to set back and just look at the situation and see nothing went wrong. I was fine, I had a place to stay, and was never just stuck. Also got to do laundry! Thank God! So all in all though I was not having a great day, it wasn’t bad either. All worked out amazingly, and I can truly appreciate the good times I have had so much more.  All trips will have their tests, and the low points.  But with out these we cannot learn and grow. With out the low points we can’t love the good times more. With out this we can’t become better than we were before. We can all read others stories, and we can take everyone elses advice on how to do things and what to pack, how to plan. We overpack for every little snag and worry about how its going to unfold. Because we all know that there will be those moments. But we cannot love the Whole trip if we are worried about the bad, we can’t learn our own abilities on cooping if we take all the best advice. We can’t truly grow into out selves with out  this. So this Epic disaster as I proclaimed to A great man, a great friend, He spoke the truth, I was judging it. I wasn’t ready to see how that could help me.

It got me still, It got me thinking and it got me regrouped refocused and in a state of amazing appreciation! Though at the time I would have given up that day in Denver! That fucking mess, because of my mistakes, my moving to fast blah blah. I wouldn’t trade it now. Less than a week later. I wouldn’t have passed it up. Granted I am still looking to make some money, but I know FOR SURE it will be here. I have learned to doubt my mind doubts God. Doubt brings stuff down. Worry bring the veil over the beauty.

Most would let this bring a trip to a stop, to just go in defeat.  I am not, I am moving forward. I have things to see. People to meet, things to learn and teach.  This is not over.

Love and Peace
The Wonderer

Talk About being in the Flow! Thank you Universe!

I know Sylvianne, we decided me bloggs should start with “I was wondering”, which I still love. But  I couldn’t find a way to work it into the start of this blogg. Lets see where I can fit it in.

So as most of you know, I am In Colorado Springs, Colorado. I am backpacking out here, heading north. This place, this state. I cant describe. It is amazing! The people are so truly nice, and the place its self is absolutely beautiful. I have met so many people. On the train out here I wasn’t completely sure if I would have a place to stay when I got to Co springs. Mainly because they have a no camping law recently passed due to over camping in public area’s. Which is understandable… I guess.  But in the first day, I landed a place to stay for a couple of days, a free concert, a hiking trip near Idaho springs, the best pizza I’ve ever experienced. That was just day one. Since then Just being me and able to talk to anyone I have had Multiple meals, coffees and everything else bought for me and a local Story telling. Kind of like “The Moth”, where people get on stage and tell a story about their lives unscripted. That way all the emotions and your soul is completely bared for people to experience. How amazing is that! I’ve talked to random people about everything under the sun. From guys on buses about marijuana laws, to older ladies who don’t like that there are cameras on all the street lamps. This conversation takes placed with me putzing down the street, she walks up to me and goes, I SHIT YOU NOT, “ There’s a sign on the post over there that says video monitored by home land security. Doesn’t that make you want to rip your clothes of and do this?” proceeds to make random poses in the sidewalk and says, “Fuck yeah” and walks off! I met a guy in a coffee shop who just moved here and is start his own radio station to combine hip hop, r&b and outdoors. Many other people just random stories about their lives, what they are doing, where they come from and why they are here. Amazing people, just simply amazing.

Spent a little time in Denver on my layover, Beautiful city. 16th street mall is sweet. Spent a long time in the book stores, and taking pictures of statues. Also talked a to guy who was working with the Green peace. As were talking and hes giving me stickers, because I love stickers, his papers and everything blow off! He’s embarrassed, but it was pretty awesome it happened. In the process of collecting them a group of girls came up and helped get them and one of them loved the info and wanted to get involved in some way.  The power of Sprit!

Here we go Sylvianne!  So I was wondering, who reading this has ever just let go and went with the flow. Let God or Spirit or Universe take over and just went with it?  If so far this hasn’t proved that with allowing it to all go and allow you Higher self to guide you and all will work out. I don’t know what does? On the train here, I had NO idea what was going to happen, No place to sleep, nothing planned to do besides walk. And wondering if I would even meet anyone. As soon as  I got here, I had a place to sleep, I had plans, I was meeting people left and right, and even food was taken care of among other things I asked Universe for. I mean I stopped worrying and just went with it. Something told me Sunday was the right day for start backpacking north. It was, I have a place to stay for tonight because of it and My host who I was staying with had a couple of couch surfers coming in. It has all landed perfectly. Also a place to do laundry free.. Score! Oh I forgot in Denver I was walking down the street and someone was handing out All natural laundry detergent. So that was taken care of as well. There’s enough there for  a few loads. And I managed to get food to carry with me when I am backpacking for free today. Amazing. I let go, completely went with the flow and Spirit has NOT let me down .I Love You God

Oh and Beth I am ok

I send Light love and peace to all

The Wonderer

Go Inside or go without!

I wonder, how many of us don’t always stand up for ourselves on something?  As I set here on the balcony at my moms, I find myself in a mixture of emotions. I have recently found myself in a similar situation where I felt like I needed someones approval who would not give me such. My grandparents. They have been completely against my trip from the start. Have thought of any way  possible to try and get me to be afraid of it. Have even went as far as calling me dumb for it. Though I wasn’t allowing their words, or their fears stop me from going on my trip, I was feeling like I needed their approval. I mean they are my grandparents. They hand a large hand in my up bringing and are very close family. They are older than me, Which to most says wiser ( or what people say is the same Smarter) Either way I was allowing myself to feel like I needed their approval. It was Plaguing me quite a bit. Why was I feeling this? Are they right? Is this a half baked idea to go backpacking? Why does it seem to matter so much? Why can’t I just get approval to live my life the way I want to live it? Is that so fucking wrong?

Though looking at it and asking my self these questions and more, I realized, I don’t need their approval. what was bothering me was that I am still insecure about my decisions.  Because I have always had that person to tell me they weren’t good choices, that I was wrong and this is the better way to do this. Like many of us . So because of  me allowing their words to effect me due to my insecurity of my own choices on how to lead my life I was upset. Yes I wasn’t letting them effect me in  the way of stopping me from doing it, but internally I was allowing them not approving my trip to enable this insecurity in my self , and was allowing it to be fed with this feeling of needing approval. But from who do I need it? The only person I need approval from is me. I am the only one who knows how to lead my life. I Knew I needed to say something. Not to make a point to them, But for me. I realized the problem wasn’t them. They weren’t going to change, But I Am changing. So the call takes place, and I start to say these things again, but mean them. (yes I’ve said them before and meant them for that moment, but I wasn’t believing them For a while. Now I am and Have to say it aloud. Though I didn’t get to say it in the words I deemed appropriate before hand I got it out of me. Felt freeing to me. I felt like I  had finally released myself to live my life the way I know hoe to live it. With only one persons approval that will control my destiny. Mine.

Though It has been said and I probably will need to say it again, I know it will still take work on my part to make it completely a reality. What throws me off is every time I say it to them, they seem to understand and they calm down with the bashes the fears, the insults. Though I know their fears are still there,  I now see that they see that I have control of my life. No matter how loose the plans for it seem or crazy it is. I have it set in a way I am totally and completely happy. I am glad that I say what I need to say. With out standing firm in ones truth and not swaying in it you lose part of you. You allow control from others upon your life. So I wonder still. Has any one else found themselves in a situation where they have to stand up in their truth? With that, who has let their truth slip from their fingers, and loose another part of yourself? Did you feel it sink back down into your being, awaiting your acceptance and love? I love you all, And I love your truth. Live in it.

Love and Peace

Zach AKA The Wonderer.